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Their lives were built on lies
their bliss just a facade
for twenty years plus five
they'd vowed before their God
to live and love and laugh
and build forevermore
they hired a household staff
had friends and wealth galore
but life behind the scenes
was filled with booze and sex
he said "it's in the genes"
she said "it's just complex"
the children shook their heads
now grown and on their own
from the time they were kids
ashamed of what was sown
To deconstruct a vow
is treachery indeed
if they had known what they know now
might it have changed their wicked deeds?
The Scarlet of ValorWere we brought forth to be monsters,
Instruments made for channeling deceit?
Where rancor’s lies and hatred feed us,
And another’s misery is our peace?
Just whose shoulders do we stand for?
On this clever grueling affair?
Or do we go and purge on blindly,
Like fish swimming in air?
If its strength we wish to have proven,
Then far too long it has been done.
Done with ways much too impeccable,
Pushing humanity into the slum.
But a commodity without fulfillment,
Will take those without a price.
What we protect goes on to crumble,
But we’re all deaf to our own cries.
Thus from a pain was borne much more,
Like a rained on se
Shut inDon’t mock me, or block me
from taking my stance;
A pity, the city
is caught in a trance.
If only the lonely--
the rich and the poor,
Admit it, we did it!
By shutting our door.
I’d doubt it, without it,
We’d crumble in ruin;
Still, steady, already
forgot what we’re doin’,
We chide the society
for shutting us in--
When really, the “silly”
was us to begin.
No longer warmMy eyes are warm
My heart is cold
You never know
Your grin grows old
You laugh at me
Im always wrong
Your great friendship
Didnt last long
Im your friend
But youre not mine
My hug is cold
Youve crossed the line
I no longer want
To be your friend
Face it now
This has to end
How to Know You're Living Rightif today was your last day,
and tomorrow was too late...
if the devil came and knocked on my door,
said, "You'll be given scant hours more."
I'd pack no bags, just jot a note:
"It's been fun, more than I'd hoped,"
and let it flutter to the floor.
if plans you make for your last day,
things you'd want to try and play;
if special times you wish you would,
you're not living as you should...
it doesn't matter anyway.
when the devil comes and knocks on my head,
"This day is your last," he said;
"Keep the change, let's move on out:
last day's ain't what life's about."
I'll race him to his vessel instead.
could you say goodbye to yesterday?
this world will offer...this world will offer a tie for my trust
but no government can raise life from the dust
so i got to remember the truth that resides
when ile follow my heart instead of the lies
that everyones spewd whether like it or not
who knows wut is best in a place that will rot?
so just smile and think 'wut a fool is that guy'
hes not going to college he'll be shoed as a fly
and tho i may not be on record or known
we'll all be remembered for wut we have sown
not wut we have reaped or wut we may claim
achievements or 'honors' as fame is a game
and 'trusty' employers will say they know why
and demanding u orders to follow, or 'bye'
but i got to ask
Something To Believe In...My heart, a field of wildflowers,
Your love can make them bloom.
Fill my head with diamond showers,
And thoughts of golden noons.
Rays of whimsy find your smile,
They dance across your face.
Electric light behind your eyes,
White heat in your embrace.
Smolders linger where you touch,
Refusing to consume.
Pleasures known too soon.
Amber soulfire flickers densely
Inside our misted shade.
While heavenly once was our intention,
To desires we abade.
A penny for your thoughts, my dear
Or maybe two, or three,
Surely all the riches I hold
For what you think of me...
Depression's DuelA girl alone, cold and wallowing in the fragments of her soul.
Two beings, Life and Death are locked in mortal combat.
Death strikes first with a furious vengeance.
In her life there is so much strife
Over such trivial matters that mortals fight over
Money, power, looks and lovers
No one cares to give her a fair chance
In death there is a release
Eternal slumber and peace
The world is cruel, just like the gruel she forces herself to eat in defeat
Yes, in your life there are quarrels
and people choose possessions over you.
But remember your little sister who looks up to you.
Your mother who held you through your child hood.
CagedLike a lion behind the bars of a cage
My longing for more fills my heart with rage
This rage build and later I realize
Their is nothing I can do to make it subside
My heart wishes for something more
But my spirits trapped behind a cell door
I don't know who has the key
To open these walls and set me free
My eyes miss the wild
The thrill of the hunt
The wonder of a child
My mind being absent
All the while I sit and I stay
Moments fly by as life slips away
What more can I do to feel that freedom again
What more can I say when I don't understand
Where is it that I am meant to be?
Because I know this caged beast is no longer me
Chasing hidden light
Water rolls off of pristine petals
Far beyond the beauty of moist metals
The organic life fighting for the outside
Wanting a life the cage seems to hide
Customary blooms of a sacred nature
Alloy of a colder nomenclature
But beauty always finds a way
No matter the sunlight given through the day
To brake the bonds of a confined space
A battle so many in life have faced
Yet like a broke heart that only wants to decay
The side of the fence has a better light….and I want her to stay.
Awake in my ExistenceLive through others in your proxy
You challenge existence without noises
The only thing you cannot fathom
Is the wakening of your boredom
Awake a life full of illusions
Crave for another lost sweet union
On a realm of cruel destruction
You whisper words of guilt and nonreaction
The frame of death float on your life
Not another hope for the lost souls
Desire, joy in your cortex will subscribe
Stand up choices who belong mentally yours.
what will come tomorrowA darkness is stirring
Inside of me
I struggle from it
But I cant break free
Horrors are abundantly
I lose all I ever held dear
Fading from this world that grows
As my mind wanders with shadows
Peace is something foreign to me
A life of hardships is what I lead
I never seem to be enough
Who thought love would be so tough
Broken mirrors and picture frames
Somehow it is all I blame
I know that something more is left
Other than a quiet death
A surrender, A return to sender
I've been on a bender
And I cant seem to stop these tears
From ringing every fear I have
Bringing it to light and then
Making them my only friend
Braking what little I love
The RemembranceDon’t look back in your past
When you believe the hope is lost;
Your reality is fiction for your brother,
Some things are always destined for the others
The anxiety will hold you in the mist
The loss of words, to reach the summer’s feast,
In hopeful rush you cross the mounds of skulls
To pierce the future who’s waiting for your call
Action and movement seen through dirty lenses
Broken thoughts expecting in defensive,
An inside sorrow to banish it from sight
Unfolded by black magic deeper in the night
Revisit all the moments seen in your strangest life
Recall the memories in which you try to dive,
Do not believe the hope f
DreamsWhat are dreams?
Are they glimpses of life between the seams?
The stitches unraveled and loose,
Bent and slumped over like an obtuse,
Reality torn completely apart,
Hearing now the voice of your heart,
Telling you sweet fables,
Allowing you to feast at its tables,
Changing words into sight,
Inspiring you for lifes fight,
Maybe we arent listening,
Deaf and blind yet whistling,
Yet we do not hear,
Entertaining us yet we do not cheer,
Appealing to us but we do not budge,
Ignoring its gentle nudge,
Until its repeating itself,
Comfortably lodged on your minds shelf,
SquirmYou make me feel, in times like these,
Like a parasite, a great unease –
As if my nuisance brain decides
To make my stomach squirm with tides.
If it be so, it’s not by choice,
Though perhaps by silence of my voice –
But I can’t trust you to take heed,
So I remain mute, a useless weed.
My dearest friend, my love, you know:
I’m not supposed to be your foe.
So where are you, my sweet ally?
I’m afraid our gentle thoughts have gone awry.
I need you back, I need you to see
What’s happening inside of me;
Don’t doubt my efforts, my will, my tries –
I search for belief in me, within your eyes.
I will care,
But I will not love.
I have nothing left in me to give.
An empty shell,
Of my former being.
From what made me whole.
These jaded eyes,
Will hold no tears.
This crying heart,
Will have no fears...
Held against a closed door.
A wall placed for safety,
To something no one may have anymore.
I have nothing left in me to give.
An empty shell,
Of my former being.
From what made me happy.
These temping lips,
Will hold no smile.
These tender hands,
Will have no child.
From the life that I lived.
A world created from memory,
To hide me from this reality.
I have nothi
My Shadowed Mystery
My lost loneliness…
I just want to look up from this ground
And see who is there.
What arms will reach around,
And comfort this poor soul?
Just hold me through this night
My insane mystery…
Such tempting lips.
Give me this one kiss
And you won't be missed.
Maybe another secret delight.
This will be my only bliss.
We'll take this flight.
My shadowed despair…
Look at me
And tell me what you don't see.
Who am I supposed to be?
I'm just lost within this misery.
Is where I will lie.
Until the day
I can finally die.
Deep into this darkness.
Lost within this -.
It binds me to all these lies.
So loud to me.
I'm lost within this -.
There is nothing I can do
To find an escape.
Take what I once was.
About what has happened.
This has become who I am.
Stop being witness
To this world which surrounds me.
Just leave me to this -.
The heart will cry out.
But the mind will remain silent.
Tears will only reveal
The hidden desire deep inside.
Diamond stars glittering in the skies.
Diamond tears shimming within the lies.
The heart will be alone.
But the mind will delve in company.
The tears will only reveal
The abondoned hope residing inside.
Diamond tears will glitter in this lie.
Diamond stars will shimmer in this sky.
The heart will dive into the darkness.
But the mind will shine in its light.
The tearls can only reveal
The lost pain hidden inside.
Every Angel Deserves a Child"I can't feel the unfurling of my wings, Daddy."
I was not her father. I had entered her life when she was two years old, and she called me Daddy since she never knew her real father. Her mother's death two years ago made me the sole, living parent of an eleven-year-old, and I never felt like I was the right person for the job.
"What do you mean, Asrin?"
"Mom always said that when puberty started I would be the swan that emerged from the ugly duckling. She said I would be able to fly gracefully towards my dreams. But, I don't feel it."
As much of a woman as she was becoming, she was still a child. I wanted to answer her question, but I really had a hard time discussing her blossoming womanhood in the middle of a laundromat. Her pretty eyes were pleading with me, but I told her we'd talk later.
Janet had told Asrin a lot of things before she succumbed to the cancer. The last week or so of Janet's life were morphine-induced fantasy, I think.
Janet and I had met during c
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